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I’ve never claimed that I had a perfect life, but I would never agreed saying that I have an interesting life -period-. I used to have a so-called-happy-life with a bunch of friends back then at the college. We were hanging out together, do some sorts of crazy-last-minute-decision stuff, celebrating merdeka at bukit bintang-dataran merdeka-klcc back to back from one place to another [not by cars..but we walked], attending final year dinner function, gigs, showcases & performances, etc. But that was then, before everything changed. It was when I feel I belong as one of them..when I thought I was really their friends.

But life moves on. Graduated, meaning you are moving forward with your new life. No more hanky-panky, no more student life. Yes, I moved to a new path, new life. I live in a place where I hardly know people who are surrounding me, I am making new friends, cathing up anything I could. Working from 8.30 am-5.30 pm, Mon-Fri. Weekends??? Pretty much same dull routines. At first I thought this was OK..but when I knew my-so-called-friends were having so much fun out there and live a real life, I feel so down.

I realized that I am a boring person. I didn’t do anything significant in my life lately. Going through the same routines, one day after another..for the past 5 months. There are so much to-do list in my head; travelling, go to the MPO concert, watching theaters,  snorkeling, try ballroom dancing, wall-climbing, abseiling, back on the stage to perform traditional dance again..and of corse, achieve something in my life. But.. Hmm.. I don’t have someone who can accompany me to do all this together..

There is no turning back, but I have to look ahead, plan for the future and stop whining why is it my life is not like them. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence, maybe i should stop looking at the other side of fence from now on. Starting from the April Fool 2009..this is what I am going to do!